today i took the bus to see my parents and my friends... my sister came too. oh what a great weekend this will be.why does it hurt so much when she is angry at me? is she the only person that i love? is this how it feels to love anyone? or is this just the way it feels to love a complete btich? i have been in this city for 2 hours and already my mother has been brought near to tears because of the way my sister and i interact. i think the reason why her hatred towards me makes me so so u...

so yeah... those two words have begun a lot more than just my first article on a blog. they have ended a lot. they end silence, begin intamacy that should have never started, long nights on coke and playing cards, and long nights feeling insane and sleepless. those are just some examples of why i need a doctor. unfortunitly i'm a writer, and i cant just talk to people, especially not doctors. i need to write. hopefully this will save me because nothing else has, except for one person An...